You’re Already Amazing

You're Already Amazing: Embracing Who You Are, Becoming All God Created You to Be By Holley Gerth Many women are tired. Tired of trying to do more, be more, and have more. With busy work, home and church lives, it's easy to feel like our spiritual growth gets short-changed. But what if God is already pleased, more than pleased--totally head over heels crazy about us and our hearts regardless of our mistakes and crunched schedules? If it's true, that big load we've been carrying feels lighter already. In You're Already Amazing, Holley Gerth wants readers to know that they can lay down the burden of their own, and others expectations, and embrace who they are as beloved, talented women. Rediscover the gifts you've been given and the life of purpose that God has for you.

Yesterday, I was blessed to receive a copy of the book “You’re Already Amazing” by Holley Gerth. The InCourage site is hosting the Bloom Book Club and the selection for this session is this book. I knew that this book was what I needed to be reading right now and I think God for letting them choose me to receive one at no cost. I will be participating in this book club over the next ___ weeks and I hope to share my experience here. For the new readers coming from InCourage I will give you a little back story into my life.
In January 2011 I felt that God was wanting to use me more that he already was in my current position as a Para Support but I did not know what that would be. I really loved my job but I just kept feeling like there was something more out there that I was supposed to be doing. so for the next few months I prayed about it asking for the directions that I needed to go and for God to open the doors or to shut the doors that I thought were open for me.
Over the next few months I thought I was supposed to move into teaching Art, so I applied for every Art teaching position in my county and a few out of the county. Each one of the positions look very promising and I felt that this must be where God was leading me. I know now never to rely on your feelings just to wait on God.
Well after countless interviews and long waits for answers I thought I had this one position. Up until this point this door looking like the one that I was to walk through, but God had other plans for my life.
In June 2011 the door for teaching Art in a public school setting closed and at first I was heartbroken. I felt like a failure, that I was not good enough , that somehow I was never going to be able to step up from where I was to where I thought I needed to be. Maybe that was my problem. It was where “I” thought I needed to be and not where God wanted me to be.
I kept praying to God to show me what I should do and in July 2011, I felt that I needed to leave the Job that I was currently working at. (It was being cut by 25 % and would have cost me more to go back and forth to work that I would have been bringing home.) I kept waiting for another door to open but noting ever did, so I thought I would have to return to this position when school started back.
One morning July 12, 2011 I woke up with a word on my heart, and that word was  “Leap”. I thought about it all day and for a couple of days after that. I prayed and that is when I know that God showed me that I had not taken the “Leap” of Faith and cut ties with the previous job. So on July 19, I submitted my letter and left a job that I have worked at for 4 years to stay-at-home with my girls and homeschool them,
As I prepared for the school year with my girls at home I kept thinking that there had to be more that I was supposed to do, but if it was just for my girls I would do it, and do it with a smile on my face. But God had other plans. I began to help out at my church more, doing things that I really love to do but never had the opportunity to before. God opened doors that I never even knew were there. I know that for now I am where God wants me to be and where I fit.
That brings me back to now. God has me where he wants me to be but I still feel that I am not good enough, that I don’t have what it takes. I know that this book is fore me because sometimes you need to hear something a few times to get it in your head and I am trying to become what God created me to be, and He wants me and you to know that we are Already Amazing